SORRY FOR THE NO POST IN A LONG TIME!

First off, sorry guys and sorry for not replying to any comments. If you guys have any existing or new questions or anything to share, you guys can share it here and I'll respond!

Second off, I've been going through a lot of changes that keep me busy. I recently got a job, go to college now, and started reading the e-book I recommended to you guys. So far it's good and helps a lot with me personally and socially. This is the link if you want to read it with me and discuss. http://99556alywddknmemf7jpqsdn4g.hop.clickbank.net/ I've also been taking on a lot of more responsibilities.

As for my health, I've been doing fine, better actually. I've been steady on my medication. Sometimes it'll be bad, but only sometimes.

What's new with you guys? Less about me, let's catch up!

Happy Holidays guys!

How was your Christmas and Christmas' eve?

Mine have been really good because I have no stress from school. I've been doing nothing but relaxing and my symptoms are very much less.

(Schizophrenic facts : Did you guys know that? Not necessarily a cause of schizophrenia, but you can consider becoming unstressed a treatment of schizophrenia. Eliminate the stress in your life and you'll realize there are less schizophrenia symptoms. Try it seriously. There are many schizophrenia types and I have paranoid schizophrenia (well that was the diagnosis), and it works for me. Just my 2 cents.)


Again, it sucks being schizophrenic in the family. I get this little special "attention" and "treatment" like how they would treat kids that have downs syndrome. I guess they just don't understand what is schizophrenia, and what low stage I am on in. For me, it's mostly delusions about believable serious and unbelievable unserious things and vice-versa, paranoia, social anxiety, some bipolar, depression, things that i do that some say are weird, when i've done it my whole life so i guess it could be schizophrenic.

But enough of that! Christmas! How was it guys? What did you get from Santa Claus haha? I got some gifts, 60$, 30$ gift-card, pajamas, a longsleeve shirt, 3d tv accessories, and baked goods. What did you guys get?
I had a good time despite the little special treatment I receive from my family. (we all met up for Christmas dinner.) I had fun with them. What about you guys? What did you guys do?

Sorry for the inactiveness. It's just the holidays are coming and I have a lot of shopping and hanging out with family and friends to do.  I'll make another post before New Years, but if i don't I wish you guys all a happy new years and let the year bring us all wealth, happiness, friends, and ease, especially ease in the people with schizophrenia disorder. Love you guys all for supporting me, until next time!

P:S, I almost forgot to mention. At a party I talked to someone (a friend's friend) and ended up telling them I was schizophrenic, and they told me that his friend at the same party was schizophrenic. Well long story short, we talked for a long time (good to connect with other schizophrenics) and told me about this e-book he was reading.
He said he overcame it better with the book.. He was telling me how unmotivated he was before and uncommitted and didn't even want to read the book, but he eventually got through it. He was really talking good about it and I could go on endlessly talking about it and recommended it to me. If you guys are interested, because I am, then go ahead and buy it. It's safe. I'm going to order one too. But take note, this isn't magically going to help your schizophrenia. You have to be patient and work HARD, that's what he said. He said it's not an overnight cure. If you can, spread the news about this. If it can help someone I know who has almost full blown schizophrenia, I believe it can really help us or benefit us all in one way or another. I'll let you know how it goes when I order one, I'm short of a little money. The weird little link is here:

http://99556alywddknmemf7jpqsdn4g.hop.clickbank.net/

Check it out, whoever wants to read it with me should buy it too. It seems interesting.

Thanks for the read guys. Comment below about the holidays or about this new book! Love you guys.

Hello!

Hey guys I'm back on the blog.

Sorry for no recent updates. How are ya'll doing? I'm doing good now that I have winter break. School is out the way which means stress is out the way, which really helps with my symptoms. You guys should eliminate stress, regulate sleeping habits, and regulate eating habits, even if your not schizophrenic!

I'm doing really good which means not a whole lot to say.

But I like to take this time to learn more about my followers. So what's up guys? I know all your names, but where are you guys from? How old are you guys? What attracts you to my blog? Do you have loved ones with schizophrenia and how are they doing with it? Tell me about yourself! Hobbies, interests, etc?

As for me, my name is John. I just turned 18. I've developed symptoms since 15 or 16, and they've been getting strong since mid-late 17. I'm from California, USA. My real dad which I have no contact with might have schizophrenia or something with delusional disorder, which is probably why I have it. My interests are the typical for those my age, which is just hanging out with my friends to eat or smoke or drink, a whole big interest in music, literature, and history, sports (though I don't regularly anymore), gaming on the computer and sports gaming on consoles, socializing, meeting new people, and philosophizing, a big hobby of mine. What about you guys?

Tell me about yourself!

What's up everyone? How was your weekend?

Hey guys! What did you guys all do this weekend?

I had a great weekend of some studying but mostly getting out of the house. I found that socializing and keeping myself occupied helps me with my symptoms. Studying has my mind travel a lot! I haven't been to school in 6 days :/. But I'm trying to go tomorrow. What I'm planning to do is drop out of high school and pick up independent studies (basically you work at home). I feel like I'm losing pride and giving up on the battle by not going to high school and trying to graduate the high-school-way, but I guess it is the same thing? It both has the same outcome, and I really feel like independent studies will be easier for me. But I feel like I'm giving up. What do you guys think? I have SO much work to make up because I haven't been to school in 1-2 months, it's VERY stressful working each day sun-up to sun-down every single day and studying and reading as well. I have 3 AP (advanced placement college-level) classes so that adds up a lot. What do you guys think I should do?

Choice A) Take independent studies to graduate by working at home going once a week to turn in and pick up homework. Will graduate. Easier route, don't have to try as hard. More time to relax and perhaps get a job. Less stressful. Reason behind doing this: I want an easier route if the outcome is the same, and I can focus on getting a job early.

Choice B) Continue high school and make up A LOT of make-up work, sun-up to sun-down for about 2-3 weeks on top of the normal homework. Will graduate. Harder route, will have to try really hard. Completing a hard task is good. No time to relax and get a job. Very stressful. Reason behind doing this: I want to say I completed high-school and want to complete a hard task. But it will be hard and I don't know if I'm 100% up to it.

Remember that I have no friends at my high school, only 2 that I am not close to. My other close friends go to other schools. And most people are kind of retarded at that school.

What do you guys think I should do?

On another hand, so how was your guys' weekend? Anything fun? Do anything productive?

I'm back!

Sorry guys for the delay - I've been very busy with school and studying as well as having a hard time sleeping and getting up.

It was my birthday Sunday! I just turned 18. I feel as if the responsibilities are coming very near, except those that come already. I was busy from the birthday, as well. I had a good one though.

My schizophrenic symptoms are getting worse as well and I'm seeing my therapist today. I probably need to get a bigger dosage of my medicine. My paranoia sets in a lot, but I can control it better now with the medication. It also keeps me motivated but there is still that unmotivation. The medicine basically helps me control my symptoms, but not eliminate them. It did for a while. My anxiety is controlled, as well as sleep (sort-of), social problems, paranoia, racing thoughts, etc. It feels good.

I should have blogged this weekend. You guys would have heard me at my weakest. But I feel better now. I haven't gone to school in 2 days but I prepare to go back tomorrow.

I'm really grateful for a lot of you guys comments. Some were really motivational, others very helpful, and others very caring. Thank you guys for supporting me, and if I could help somehow, I would. It really helps that people care about me and my disorder. Thanks for reading guys, this will be the end of my post for now as I have a lot of homework. I feel as if this post has a lot of gibberish, what do you guys think?

Also, I have a question. How do you guys get yourself to bed every night? I keep getting calls to go somewhere, or I keep finding things to do. I can never get in bed in time therefore I cannot go to school! How do you guys do it? I have this crave to do more and more!

Hey Guys, Sorry

Sorry I haven't made a post in a while.. I've been so kept up with homework and I've been so tired during the day due to irregular medicine and sleep usage.. So I don't have much to say.

But my symptoms are getting worse. Before, I was full on schizophrenic and at times I would be very into it. Now, I feel as if parts of me are, and parts of me arent. The parts of me that are, however, are stronger than before. This is a concern.. I need to see my therapist. But at least I feel motivated and my social anxiety is gone. I don't have much to say right now, because I am tired and have work to get to then I need to rest for a big day tomorrow.

I hope everyone has had a good day. I'll be going now. I'll love to chat, so comment below if you'd like to talk, but I don't have time for a post! See you guys later and thank you for the views!

Hey! Fourth Post

Hey guys.

Today I had a really bad start. I couldn't sleep last night due to some racing thoughts and I couldn't wake up for school on time, so I didn't go today. I felt super lazy, super un-motivated as I was very tired, but I pushed myself. Unfortunately I didn't push myself much. I didn't do much of anything productive today, but at least I am sleeping early at this time, and did few school work. Whenever I oversleep like this, I just have the most laziest, hangover-like feeling. I keep sleeping and sleeping and am so immersed in my dreams one after the other. This is why I have missed uncountable days of school. Do you guys ever get this? The feeling of hangover after oversleeping and/or doing nothing all day? The mental state where you just keep wanting to sleep over and over for some reason? Or making bad decisions such as staying up even though you know it is a bad idea?

But I am doing better. I feel good right now, bought a few things for Cyber Monday and some Black Friday things coming in. I bought a gaming mouse, a mousepad, some earphones, and some clothes. What did you guys do on Black Friday/Cyber Monday? Hope it all worked out for you guys.

I'm going to go sleep now. This was a rather quick update and post, but hope I'll chat with a few of you guys. See you later!

P.S. Hmm, I'll decide to say this too to get it off my mind. I feel really bad because my group presentation has been delayed 3 days already due to my repeated absences.. I feel as if everyone looks down on me. My teacher even asked me if I was sure I wouldn't be absent anymore. I feel really bad and feel like I disappointed people. This adds on to why I can't sleep at night.

Another thing is I'm broke right now so I borrowed some money from my mom for Black Friday shopping and Cyber Monday shopping. But I asked for another 25$ for a set of earphones that are discounted 75$ off, but she went through this speech and I believe almost teared. She sounded like I didn't know what I was doing, that I was spending money like crazy, that I was telling her I would pay her back but probably would never find a job, etc. It just hurts that my mom cannot trust me or lend me money. I feel bad almost asking for just 11$ (I ended up not buying those earphones as they ran out of stock) for these other earphones discounted 45$ off. But I am borrowing money, that is all. It's the holidays right? What do you guys think about this? Am I doing anything wrong? She complains about me not going to school or finding work yet, but I told her I'm going for an interview this weekend. I guess the best thing to do is to PROVE her I can pay her back by getting the job and paying her back everything huh? Damn, that sounds like a perfect idea. That helped get a lot off my shoulders, my mind, and my chest. What I'll do is pay her back and show her, rather than talking about doing it and worrying until then. Time to just borrow these 11$ from her, I think she'll be okay with that.

Thanks for listening again guys, much respect.